A Crisis Of Faith – Rambles by Susan Lute
We do a lot of ra-ra here at SJP. Keeping a positive attitude is extremely important in this business. But I also think it’s important to know, sometimes you’ll wonder if being a writer is worth all the work and fuss. And it doesn’t matter what profession you’re in, there will come a time when you hit this slippery slope. Am I doing what I was meant to do?
I’m going to bare my soul a little here. Oh no, you say, and wince. It’s okay. Grab some coffee or tea, and pull up a chair.
I am one of those people who has always been loved. From the time I was a tiny girl, I remember being loved by my family. I’m also a Leo, so after I got over the shyness, I discovered I like playing center stage. But life happens, shapes who we are, and soon I learned it wasn’t always good to get too attached to people, only to then leave them behind (I moved a lot, even into my adult years). And then I discovered the writing community.
OMG, you guys. There is so much love and acceptance here. I’ve made lifelong friends who will be with me until my very last breath. And I treasure every single one. So how, you wonder, could I come to a crisis of faith in my writing? It was too easy. Being a writer is not the hardest job in the world. It’s also not the easiest. You get real familiar with rejection. But like anything else, rejection can be a learning tool, even rejection by readers. One morning I just woke up and wondered if I was doing what I was meant to do, and spiraled down from there.
At the same time, I was sorting through some old stories, and partials of stories, and contrary to my rejection letters, and former belief, they’re not half bad. They’re a bit juvenile, and lack a certain polish, but it’s easy to see they could someday, with a little work, see the light of day.
This is what ‘being a writer’ looks like in today’s world. You have good days, and you have bad. When you’re in a good frame of mind, you stumble from bed, stretch, grab coffee or tea (or like this morning, I’m drinking hot lemon and honey), and head for your desk. If you’re more organized, you might shower and dress as though leaving the house to go to a day job. That’s kind of nice too. You might write for a couple of hours before getting on the net. Social networking takes up a chunk of your working day. How much do you do? No one has a good answer. And how much of it effects sales. Again, no answer. If you’re an indie author, you have book details to attend to. Do you publish only on Amazon and Barnes & Noble? Or do you put your book up at Smashwords, too? Do you design your own covers, print copies, or hire those pieces out? Every step is different for each author. If you’re published by an e-publisher, or traditional publisher, some of these considerations aren’t a problem. However you’re published, you’ll always be looking at the bottom line. How many books did you sell today? This week? This month, etc.
And so you know it’s not all about the writing, I made a pizza quiche for the first time the other night. The Mr. said it was so-so, not his favorite dish. I, on the other hand, loved it, and think I’ll make it again. Crisis of faith averted.
Thanks for joining me on today’s rambles. There should be a question in here, but I just can’t think of one. Tell me what you think anyway.
Posted on February 5, 2012, in General and tagged crisis averted, crisis of faith, doing what you're meant to do, friends, learning tool, love, pizza quiche, rejection, See Jane Publish, SJP, Susan Lute, writing community. Bookmark the permalink. 13 Comments.